cant sleep

I need to be in bed right now but i chose not to sleep yet. Im too lazy. [pati pala pagtulog kinatatamaran] O well, thats me! HAHA

Anyway, i've been thinking if i will give money instead of gifts to my god-children [you read it right, god CHILDREN, i know, im old-----not! haha] BUT, mom said if you give money, it might not benefit the child. What she means is better give a gift so that they will really appreciate it. Although i dont know if i have the luxury to shop for goodies. If time permits, why not! I dont want to give so-so things to my god-children, i want it nice and cute! HAHA. 

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My dog, cotton, is so spoiled na! Everytime i go to my bed, she barks at me and wants to go up and sleep with me. I end up letting her sleep beside me. I cant control her bark! too noisy! haha! And you know what people, she wants to be with somebody always. If we leave her alone, she barks so loud! She doesnt want to be left alone.O well, i really love her and i cant resist her cute-cuddly-angelic face! 

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I can't wait for the twilight screening on Nov.26! Damn, i need to watch it whatever it takes! I want to reserve pa nga advance screening eh. HARHAR! Edward my love, I will support you all the way! Look! Im not even sleeping!!!! HAHAHA!  Gosh! is this a sign of me turning into a vampire! HAHAHAHA lol!!!! deym!:)) So addicted!

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My gosh also, Im so into Plurk-ing I got 27.++.  karma for 3 days only! YEY YEY YEY! and i have the banana dancing as my smiley! WOWOWOWOWOW!!! Its like a drug! Can't live without! hahaha Me=CRAZY!!:))

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Okey, enough about it. Look Looj, You need to sleep or else you'll end up having a headache again tom. DARN! why do i didnt think of that. hahahaha

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Twilight experience

Okey, I might be super late to post this topic. I know people go gaga over it for quite sometime now. I was just interested again by this book yesterday. AND now, I'm feeling the twilight experience too!:))

I know i kind of break my former announcement that im not into meyer's vampire love story but when i read it the second time around ( Yes, i read twilight a few years back and yes, i admit, i didn't pay attention that much) i fell in love with the book. I know there are gramatically incorrect sentences and emo much conversations by edward and bella, i think why most people fall in love in this story is that its kind of a fairy tale story. ADMIT IT PEOPLE! twilight fanatics are wishing they have that perfect man,(well not really, because he is a vampire, thats the twist) but even though he is a vampire, he still possess the quality we love to dream about at night. The prince that will save us from all bad things.

I know its kind of mushy and stuff, but we like it. Even though we are in this techonology age, we still want to hear or read a love story that will make you say "AWW"

okey, i've read the book in only one day. I started yesterday afternoon and finished it today:))

I always blush when i read this kind of stories:))

i am ill

Im sick again and again and again. For the same old reason, Cough and colds. Darn it. Last 3 weeks ago, my lungs almost gave up on me because of that stupid phlegm <> 

And now, IM BACK TO MY STICKY FRENEMIES (Its friends and enemies) I hate it when im sick and not feeling well. 

It was supposed to be a fun day for me. Kc and Agnes suppose to be at my house for a bonding session but it has to be postponed due to my condition.

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Enough of my sentiments. What can i do. WTF.haha

Yesterday, we went shopping. Yey!, but no yey for me after i saw my balance in my atm card!:( 

But! i bought the limited edition of havaianas! Im not actually a havaianas fan but i liked it. haha!

Well, i got to go, i think i have fever. DEYM

Never felt so good

4 words i told KC how i felt after that text message. Well, I think its about time for me to say what i needed to. My other friend(she doesnt want to be named:)) ) said that what i did was so darn late. Her exact words were " You know luge, you shouldnt think twice in telling that, you should have told it a billion years ago" Okey, im not born like a billion years yet haha, but seriously though, she's right. I have this feeling that i might do a wrong thing and will regret it but i never felt so good after doing that! 

I Know some of you will ask whats up with me again. Hahaha, Well, In short, let me just tell you that there is this one person who just turned into a monster. HAHAHA joke:)) basta, to make the story shorter, "I reached my hand but somebody chose to fall" 

Totoo, ive been blinded all this time. Siguro kung bibilangin lahat ng ginawa ko for this so called friend, wala na. Alam ko may nagawa naman siya sakin oo but why all of a sudden. 

Gusto niyo parang showbiz talkshow magbigay ako ng clue? HAHA blind item. hahaha 

No, i will not tell who the person is kasi its unfair naman sa part nya.(tamo, im still thinking of your side)

You know what, hindi talaga bestfriend ang turing sayo eh. Akala ko lang yun. Im not mad i just wanted you to open your eyes. 

i know some of you will not agree with me but its an experience. 

Anong mafefeel nyo kung bigla nalang nawala yung friendship and then hindi ka kausapin. Your trying to reach our but no reply. Tinawagan ka nga pero nagpagawa ng hw. anong klase yun?! tapos hindi ka nanaman rereplyan.

I hope you read this. And to her friends that will read this, sabihin niyo. hindi ko siya kilala. Nakakatakot siyang maging kaibigan.

THIS WILL BE MY LAST ENTRY FOR THAT TOPIC. I WILL CLOSE THIS ISSUE ONCE AND FOR ALL. IM SORRY IF I WILL HURT SOMEONES FEELING, BUT ITS TIME FOR ME TO LET IT ALL OUT AND NOT HEAR MY SIDE OF THE STORY. I HAVE FEELINGS THAT WAS NOT TAKEN CARED OF ANDI NEVER FELT SO GOOD.

headache

Im really having a big headache since last saturday. I really dont know why. To add to that miserable pain, This person is really getting to my nerves. YOU SHOULD SHUT UP OKEY? YOUR MAKING MY LIFE SO DAMN BORING AS YOURS.

GRR. nakakainis, She really needs a makeover. GRR,.

Anyway, I dont want to lure over material things but i really wanted a new watch. ODM exactly. But. im really on the thinking side because of the economical crisis the Philippines is going through. Look at millions of people who has nothing to eat or is less fortunate then me. I mean come on, Will i spend 6 thousand just for a watch? i know ive been spending a lot(digi cams, 5 cellphone,new laptop,clothes, beds;clothes;shoes;diapers for my dog etc) Hmm, i really wanted to save bu, i really like one. HAHA:))

Anyway, my head hurts bigtime. need to go!

luge

MY PRINCE

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:)

This day was so fun yet so memorable. I had time to talk things over with my friends and catch up and daym, time is so fast. I really admire the strenght of my barkada over their problems. I will not tell because its private but one things for sure, its not easy.

By the look in their eyes, you can see the pain running through their eyes as if it will burst into fire. Even if they dont tell what is the real score the pressure is within their bodies. 

I am very lucky that i dont undergo such agony Its not that serious or life and death situation. 

I dont know what to tell them. Im just here no matter what.

I miss them but i dont know why im not the usual me.

Before, if they have a problem, I volunteer myself to solve it whatever it takes. But now, I just listen and thats it. I give my own advice.

Maybe, time has changed me. Is it because of what happened or what has time done to me. 

Sometimes, i want to be what i am before and be free again. However, im happy what i am now.

TO THE MVP OF OUR BARKADA

Have you ever wondered how difficult life is when you dont have a person who believes in you and is always there to protect and guide you?

A person who is always beside you no matter what? A person who through thick and thin is there, standing in front you?

how would you feel if that person always comforts you and at the same time shout at you if you did something wrong?

Words is not enough to describe the one and only, angelica montefalcon:))

Okey so first thing's first! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST GEGE! 

Alam mo naman ang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sayo..

na, i love you, miss you and im always here for you:))

Sympre mahigit sa best friend yan, Sister na ata turingan namin:))

All secrets, alam namin.. kabisado nya ako ulo hanggang paa. (LITERALLY :)) ) 

basta gege, Im always here for you no matter what:> 

Kahit na lagi mo ko inaaway, binabatukan, pinapagawa ng rizal hws mo(pero ayaw ko:)) ),nilalaglag, sinasabunutan, pinapalo,kinukurot, sinisigawan:)) mahal parin kita:)

Dont ever change dear:) I love you! HAPPY BDAY GIRL!:D 

P.s Be strong and stay witty as always!:D

WALLS

Indeed, some things are not meant to be. 

Learning to value the perspective of reality is somewhat very shallow. You need to understand fully that life in itself is not merely revolving in one's own image. 

I sat here, waiting for my life to be more productive. I know, I shouldnt be so blatant in terms of my own responsibility in life.

I wanted to be everything for everybody  but i cant understand why is there a wall standing infront of me.

Damn those walls. 

Best part

Maybe i tend to be insensitive sometimes but i try not to dominate the possessive part. I know giving it all might be too confusing but you should see what i really wanted to do. FOR THE BEST OF EVERYONE I LOVE. I don't pretend or act as if i am some saint or angel at that area but i kinda realize that what my destiny in this world is to let people be connected or re-invent their own self. 

Mushy? No, im just a little bit afraid of what will happen next in my "what i usually say" tangled world. 

Some say, my life is perfect, having a perfect family(they said so), having what i need and want, having good grades, having the confidence everyone has dreamed of and so on..

My life may have a fairy tale story, but, not everything is a story, its reality, its not a perfect world of mine, its kind of a reality-game show.Wherein i play the contestant and all what i have, i really work hard for it.

I mean, my life is not really perfect, i just strive to be the best of what i can be.:)

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Every girl needs a break

We never admit it nor tell anybody that we are tired of things that we normally do.Usually, it struck everyone and believe me, its worth the wait.

What am i talking about? Isn't it obvious? LOVE.

Love can tell us to be good and bad. Whether it is real or not. HAHA! is it infatuation (INFANTUATING dapat ang ilalagay ko, hahaha joke only!!:)) ) or is it possession?


Why am i telling this? BECAUSE IM IN LOVE WITH CHRIS TIU! whataaaaa hhaha


okey, do i need that to squeeze in my blog entry. HAHA. my god, im so sorry that my fanatically over-rated emotion has come this far.

Anyway, Given this chance, i would like to congratulate the ateneo blue eagles for that crown in the uaap season 71:) Go ateneo!! AMDG! :D:

A thousand miles

That's the song tracy sang before she left for the states:) I just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LONG LOST BESTEST FRIEND EVER:) we promised before that even though we will be million miles away, we will always stay the best of friends forever:) (even though we have other bestfriends)

We've been away for quite sometime now. its been 6 years already since i last saw her and damn i miss her so much. We stay connected thru text messages and phone calls for the past years but because of time limits, email and myspace became our bonding moments. Oh, i miss the times way back then. haha

but i know, she is happy where she is right now:)

hugs and kisses:) as always:)

This is me

There is no holding back. For some reasons, i should let silence be the teacher of what im feeling and because of that it may lead to a brighter future.

I know you can't understand what i am saying and is about to say but for me, just let it out.

For sometime, i've been playing front-player and people was used to it. They applauded me for being someone that im not. Come to think of it, i am a great shadow-player too, Living amidst the dark corner wandering how and why i came this far. Learning how to be myself is simple, just pretend everything is alright. Bullshit. Its not that simple, ITS HARD. ITS FREAKING COMPLICATED with all the lines,wires that are tangled in my world. Im trying to fix the technical road i went through but its not that easy.

I wanted to be someone who lives a simple life. But, i guess i was born to be in the middle of everything. You shouldnt pitty me because im lucky that i am like this. Im in great awe that because of this wild world of mine, I get stronger everyday. Would'nt you want the same place as i am?

Think twice people. HAHA but i guess its the real me. No one, should ever question what ive done to my life because i chose to be different. I became like this because of what i did and i dont care if its hard, i am used to it and it just proves that i am a better person than the people who hid under their blanket and take everything as easy as it looks like. But in reality, its not.

So to all the people who try to pretend, go out of your shell and be yourself. You might thank me in the near future:)

testing

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