AGAIN

What happened? Im back to the "cold days" why? I really dont know! Im still in the state of shock. Please lord help me. I want to finish what ive started but whats wrong. I DONT KNOW.

AGAIN AND AGAIN, im feeling this ugh feeling. What to do, I dont know. What to feel, i dont know. All i know is, im feeling this weird ugh AGAIN AND AGAIN.


What to write

AGAIN, should i move on, i wish.

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Im still in a state of shock. I dont know what to feel and think. Wala akong nararamdaman.

Why? All the unnecessary thoughts surrounds me padin. Negativity ba or BV. Now, my heart is pumping really hard. I wanna die. No scratch that, i wanna live. But how? I am living in misery.

Help? Save me. PLEASe

Lets Play

Yes naman, you have blackberry na din, Can i have ur bbm pin? =))

I was thinking if he bought it or bigay ulit from the fans? I mean, the slr, to thr LV belt, to all the gadgets he has, ano pa ang hindi niyo nabibigay? owell sige mayayabang este mayayaman naman kayo so go!:))

Im just sad that the true fans that really loved him, walang chance na to get closer to him. Sinara niya kasi agad, well dahil din sa panununsol ng mga nasa paligid niya. Like me, i had a chance to see upclose and to feel what they are in person. Im just naiinis to those feelingera na managers and fans na wala na tuloy chance yung iba to be closer to them. Hay, o well im happy im just a fan looking down to their world:))

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Im still sick. Bed rest for me. Im bored, lets play?

I want to be okey

For the past 3 years my life is so miserable and super sad. I wish to be happy, SOMEDAY.

Never ever..... NOT

After 34872538723978 years, I remembered i have a blogspot account! At first i don't know the correct url but i know my google account so i retrieved this!:)

Icame across my last post titled never ever, and i was laughing because guess what? that friend, we're okey! Not A-okey but we talk na. I think its safe that we are now friends, not as friendly as before but its all good.

That was what i hoped and prayed for. And its all that matters now!

Anyway, I've been into tough times lately. Ups and downs but i think i can handle it (for now i guess haha)

Materialistic is the word for me this past months i've acquired a bb phone, a netbook, dslr , camcorder. Im happy but still not contented. I realized that having all what i want will not bring me happiness.

I wish and pray to god that i will be successful in life, now that im back and doing good, god help me!

Never ever that i imagined ill be OKEY :D